On Blogging and Confessing
Ok, I know the title is kinda intriguing and ambitious, but let me tell you first that whatever I am gonna write here is based on my personal views and opinions. I am not gonna try to dissect the reason why blogging is such a HUGE hit these days, or why people blog at all. So please, just try to read through it and enjoy. I am no Freud.
Hehe....
The first line of these blog is such a contradiction. And why? OK, first of all, the main reason why people blog is for them to catch attention. Let's admit the fact that we, as 21st century human beings are breed by the years of television and internet VOYEURISM. If every blogger in the internet would write disclaimers like that, might as well keep it in a locked diary.
We are afraid that we are going to be judged based on what we are writing/sharing in our blogs but the fact that we actually posted something is a very clear indication that we are opening ourselves to the prying eyes of whoever reads your blogs.
Like this one I am writing. I know for a fact that someone, somehow, a soul would stumble upon this blog and read it. In this way, I am already opening myself up to criticism and judgement. We are all EXHIBITIONISTS, in one way or another. We have to surrender to the fact that once we have something written in our blogs, it is a way of baring our souls, our thoughts. At least that remains true for people like me that believes that writing is still the purest way of pouring out one's soul. When we post something in the internet, it is a subtle invitation to take a peek in our thoughts, may it be superficial or an honest presentation of ones' true self.
Think of it this way, blogging is the quintessential display of human's primal instinct to belong. We try to share our thoughts to the millions in the internet because we want someone to get something from it, to live with the experience, to synchronized with the same thoughts and sometimes to learn something from it. As humans, we use so many measures to leverage and benchmark ourselves with other human beings. We simply want to belong to a mass. Admittedly, I am openly riding in this bandwagon called blogging. I could site some reasons why I blog though:
1. Theraphy - for those like me that cannot afford to go to shrinks with ridiculous hourly basis rates, blogging can serve as an alternative outlet for all those pent-up angst so as not to strangle ourselves, hmmm... and sometimes your boss too.
2. The Hip/Cool/In Factor - again, we are alwyas fascinated and smitten by what is "in." There is a certain "hip"or "cool" factor if you are doing what the so-called "mass" is also doing.
3. The Intellectual Vanity appeal (plagiarized phrase!) - I would like to think that in writing my blogs, I am able to impart something valuable to my readers. Wheter it's a close friend being updated on what is currenlty happening in my life, or a stranger stumbling upon this blog. This also serves as a good venue for frustarted/trying-hard writers like me to publish our senseless mumblings.
4. Confessions - yes, this is the last and for me, most important reason why I blog. I am, you can say, coward when it comes to revealing and confessing my own feelings. I tend to shy away from confrontations and try to settle by compromising. I also feel that using the internet as a medium of sending messages is very im-personal but nonetheless effective. It saves us from the shame of face-to-face inter-actions.
On that note, I would end this blog by saying that, I know you have been reading my blogs, and that somehow, I hope that I have sparked even a little interest in your heart. Let me tell you, that everytime I see or hear you, I get that "warm and fuzzy" feeling inside. I may not fulfill your fantasies or meet your "minimum standard requirements." Though everyday is a battle to get your attention and sustain it even for a minute by my trivial musings because of your ADHD. Though I sometimes I feel stupid and dumb by following you around. Though this would sound mushy and all.... I just want you to know....
Ah...nevermind! (I don't wanna be judged you know!)
Hehe....
The first line of these blog is such a contradiction. And why? OK, first of all, the main reason why people blog is for them to catch attention. Let's admit the fact that we, as 21st century human beings are breed by the years of television and internet VOYEURISM. If every blogger in the internet would write disclaimers like that, might as well keep it in a locked diary.
We are afraid that we are going to be judged based on what we are writing/sharing in our blogs but the fact that we actually posted something is a very clear indication that we are opening ourselves to the prying eyes of whoever reads your blogs.
Like this one I am writing. I know for a fact that someone, somehow, a soul would stumble upon this blog and read it. In this way, I am already opening myself up to criticism and judgement. We are all EXHIBITIONISTS, in one way or another. We have to surrender to the fact that once we have something written in our blogs, it is a way of baring our souls, our thoughts. At least that remains true for people like me that believes that writing is still the purest way of pouring out one's soul. When we post something in the internet, it is a subtle invitation to take a peek in our thoughts, may it be superficial or an honest presentation of ones' true self.
Think of it this way, blogging is the quintessential display of human's primal instinct to belong. We try to share our thoughts to the millions in the internet because we want someone to get something from it, to live with the experience, to synchronized with the same thoughts and sometimes to learn something from it. As humans, we use so many measures to leverage and benchmark ourselves with other human beings. We simply want to belong to a mass. Admittedly, I am openly riding in this bandwagon called blogging. I could site some reasons why I blog though:
1. Theraphy - for those like me that cannot afford to go to shrinks with ridiculous hourly basis rates, blogging can serve as an alternative outlet for all those pent-up angst so as not to strangle ourselves, hmmm... and sometimes your boss too.
2. The Hip/Cool/In Factor - again, we are alwyas fascinated and smitten by what is "in." There is a certain "hip"or "cool" factor if you are doing what the so-called "mass" is also doing.
3. The Intellectual Vanity appeal (plagiarized phrase!) - I would like to think that in writing my blogs, I am able to impart something valuable to my readers. Wheter it's a close friend being updated on what is currenlty happening in my life, or a stranger stumbling upon this blog. This also serves as a good venue for frustarted/trying-hard writers like me to publish our senseless mumblings.
4. Confessions - yes, this is the last and for me, most important reason why I blog. I am, you can say, coward when it comes to revealing and confessing my own feelings. I tend to shy away from confrontations and try to settle by compromising. I also feel that using the internet as a medium of sending messages is very im-personal but nonetheless effective. It saves us from the shame of face-to-face inter-actions.
On that note, I would end this blog by saying that, I know you have been reading my blogs, and that somehow, I hope that I have sparked even a little interest in your heart. Let me tell you, that everytime I see or hear you, I get that "warm and fuzzy" feeling inside. I may not fulfill your fantasies or meet your "minimum standard requirements." Though everyday is a battle to get your attention and sustain it even for a minute by my trivial musings because of your ADHD. Though I sometimes I feel stupid and dumb by following you around. Though this would sound mushy and all.... I just want you to know....
Ah...nevermind! (I don't wanna be judged you know!)
posted by Lexie at
11:03 AM
1 Comments:
hello hello hello! i like your blog... good read! ^_^
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