Emotional Procrastination

This is a re-post, something written by a friend in his blogs. I highlighted some on my fave lines.

Emotional Procrastination...

One sure thing that caught my attention recently is destiny, no not the girl band but destiny itself. I am not a believer of destiny but at this point somehow I can use the term... I go for like destiny is how you make it... Ahmmm, that wasnt the case on my part. Though it was not my intention of sending a message to someone and it didn’t cross my mind that it would be something more than what I was opt to do that night. It's not everyday when surprise surprise, I meet this one extra ordinary exemption from the common people you bump to on a day-to-day basis.

In relation to that, when do you say that what you feel is love? Can we gauge it enough? Is it time that tells whether what you feel is love? I hope things can be perfectly clear... Its hard cause when emotions take over you, it just sets you in auto pilot. It takes you to certain mental states. It shrouds decision making, affects your senses, and it takes you away from logic. Am afraid, I have been hurt and I think since then I could no longer afford getting hurt again. Risk taking is something I have learned. But it has to go along with how to check if the risk I am taking is feasible. When it comes to investing emotions, every person in this world is as if they are businessmen. Trading and transacting, collaborating. Some of them gains and some looses... I loose a lot though, but i don’t bother, with loosing comes strength because it just gives me enough experience to get along to the next level of my journey.

Emotional bankruptcy, been to it a lot. I came across lines saying that you don’t have to settle for less. When people say that, how in the world would they know if their not settling for less if they wont get into it? Not my opinion, but someone told me that when looking for the right person you don’t have to necessarily wait. I ought to remember then that destiny is what you make out of it. We make things happen and destiny is based on our decisions and choices we make. So, its true then that its actually you who makes the person right for the moment. I hope this makes sense.

When saying our I love you's, do we have to wait to confirm it? There's no telling what will happen next... We may not feel the same as what we feel yesterday when we still feel that weird feeling that we ought to be confuse about whether its love or not. When we wait, we just lose the chance of saying our I love yous because we get busy contemplating about it. its just like you cry over losing a pet or something. Time and time passes til you will eventually get over it. Its like love as a feeling comes a time that it ceases to exist. Why wait, when you have all the chance of saying it?

I'm dense....

Yes, I am dense.

I am not good in reading between the lines.

I am used to people saying things that needs to be said.

I am dense.And I'm sorry.

No, I don't assume things.

That's just way too scary for me.

We talked about self-preservation, remember?

Apprehensions, I have millions.

But I'm learning, I'm trying to reach out.

I'm taking baby steps.

This is way beyond my comfort zone and you know that.

Give me time and I'll be comfortable with your life.

I'd say YES to your question - if you ask me again.

I was reading the blog entry that you wrote last night.

There are two things I want to say....

Awwww... That's sweet. Thank you.

"I ought to remember then that destiny is what you make out of it. We make things happen and destiny is based on our decisions and choices we make. So, its true then that its actually you who makes the person right for the moment. I hope this makes sense." JS, 09.11.2007

Morning Song

Part of this song was posted in a networking site.

As far as I know, he knew this song because of me. I played this the last time we were together. T'was almost a week ago. I visited his site and there it was - that line - posted somewhere - in the introduction.

It just so happened that our conversation started from work and turned into comparing songs from our CP's. I told him this is one of my favorite songs. "Morning Song" basically talks about what happens the morning after you had sex. Some part of the lyrics could be explicit but since it was Jewel, it was kinda wholesome. And just to set the record straight, the only "notes" that we compared was from our favorite songs.

I'm not sure what to make out of it. If this was posted for me, I'm tickled pink. If not, well, that's just a bummer, right?

MORNING SONG (Jewel)

Let the phone ring.
Let's go back to sleep.
Let the world spin outside our door,
You're the only one that I wanna see.
Tell your boss you're sick,
Hurry, get back in, I'm getting cold.
Get over here and warm my hands up, boy,
It's you they love to hold.
And stop thinking about what your sister said.
And stop worry'n about it,
Yes, the cat's already been fed.
Come on darlin', let's go back to bed.

(Chorus)
Put the phone machine on hold.
Leave the dishes in the sink.
Do not answer the door.
It's you that I adore, (for you I'll be a poor man's wife)
I'm gonna give you some more.

We'll sit on the front porch,
The sun can warm my feet.
You can drink your coffee with sugar and cream,
I'll drink my decaf herbal tea.
Pretend we're perfect strangers
And that we never met.
My, you remind me of a man I used to sleep with,
That's a face I'd never forget.
You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin,
Except this time it'll be even better,
We'll stay together in the end.
Come on darlin', let's go back to bed.

(Chorus)