My Early Christmas Wishlist -UPDATED

I have been hearing carols in the air for the last couple of days and the daily newscast ends with a countdown. It is official, Christmas '05 is here!


In line with that, I would post my "Wish List" for this coming Christmas. Asking why it is too early, well, so that you people have time to save or look for it. I am actually thinking about you here, you see, if I would not post this wish list, you'll be torturing yourself of thinking a gift that is worthy of me. And besides, you don't want to go to a warzone and kill yourself by doing a last-minute Chrsitmas shopping.

So, dig deep into your pockets guys!

UPDATED Since Chrsitmas is over, I have made an invertory of the things that I got!

Me Super-Likey

1. A Sony Cybershot Digicam (guys, you can actually chip-in for this.) But, my friend said that the new Canon Ixus is a lot better!! --Still waiting
2. An I-pod -- Thanks Ma!
3. DVD's of the following:

a. The COMPLETE "Sex and the City" Collection* -- bought this myself
b. The COMPLETE "Queer as Folk" Collection* -- still waiting
c. Any season of "CSI"* -- still waiting
d. "Billy Eliot"** -- still waiting
e. "Y Tu Mama Tambien"** -- still waiting
f. "Farewell My Concubine"** -- still waiting
g. "My Life in Pink"** -- still waiting
h. "Mean Girls"** -- bought this myself

* Pirated would do
** Original (I don't support piracy! Bwahaha!)

4. CD's of any artist here: (Burned and compiled would do!)

a. Hale -- still waiting
b. Bamboo -- still waiting
c. Rivermaya -- still waiting
d. Classic Eraserheads (early career) -- Thanks Michelle!~
e. Michael Buble's latest CD -- still waiting
f. Kitchie Nadal -- Thanks Roshelle!
g. Any great House music compilation CD -- still waiting

5. Any of these books:

a. The Good Earth by Pearl S. Buck -- Thanks Sling
b. The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner -- still waiting
c. Animal Farm by George Orwell -- still waiting
d. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee -- still waiting
e. Bob Ong Books -- still waiting
h. Chaim Potok Books -- still waiting
i. Maya Angelou Collection -- still waiting
j. Harry Potter series -- still waiting
k. 100 Poems by Pablo Neruda -- still waiting

6. That "Cebu" mug from Starbucks. -- still waiting
7. That blue Technomarine watch! Yummy! -- still waiting
8. That black shoe from G.H. Bass that I have been drooling for weeks. Size 11. -- still waiting
9. That khaki sports jacket from Loalde in ACC. -- still waiting
10. Two-way ticket to Manila. Thanks Mommy Ren's
11. Vacation Leave!!!! As in, I super-badly need this! I need a break! Thanks OM Ande
12. Spending more time knowing you would not hurt. Yeah YOU! still waiting for you. A text or a YM would do!

Or, if you cannot give me any of these.... a one-night chit-chat marathon over a cup of hot caffee mocha grande that you paid for will do. But then again, it would not hurt if you'll refer to the list for my Chrsitmas present! -- Yeah BITCHES, I am still waiting for this!


Cheery-O!

My Personality Defect

So, I took this test in fun-fun websites. It's going to determine what personality defects I have. So after answering like 24 questions, the results said that my personality defect is being a:

Braggart You are 57% Rational, 71% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 71% Arrogant.

You are the Braggart! Like Muhammad Ali, you would surely tell everyone that you are "The Greatest" whilst bragging incessantly about your intelligence, your skills, and your abilities. You tend to be a thinker rather than a feeler, and combined with your extroversion and arrogance, this makes you someone who probably just LOVES to brag about his accomplishments. Despite this, however, you are a very gentle, tender person and truly care about others' feelings. You just happen to care more about yourself. Unlike Ali, of course, you are rather rational as opposed to emotional, and you are also much more gentle. But his arrogance and extroversion best reflect the most visible aspects of your personality. Your personality defect is the fact that you are extremely overconfident, extroverted, and perhaps rather lacking in emotions. YOU ARE THE GREATEST! Or so you keep telling yourself every night, in hopes that eventually everyone else on the planet will agree. Well, sorry, we probably won't. To put it less negatively: 1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive. 2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Bitch-Slap. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hand-Raiser, the Haughty Intellectual, and the Capitalist Pig. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Love is a Scary Thought

Ok, so my friends have been insisting that I am in-love. That just gives me the shivers!!!

Come on!!!

I am not saying that I have lost all the abilities to feel anything towards other people, but love? Give me a break! Yeah, I might like this and that particular person, but to claim that I love him is a total absurdity! Don't get me wrong though, the guy is okay. It's just that when people tell you somethings that they say you are feeling, it just makes it worse.

Have you ever wondered where people get the idea that you are in-love even when you're not telling them. I mean, does it really show in your actions? What if you are just naturally sweet and caring? Does that mean that you are in-love with the particular person? And sometimes, other people can mis-interpret your actions, right? Do you actually believe that if a person is in-love, you can see it in their eyes? What if there is something else that inspires that person. What if like me, they are just happy as they are? What if they are just fine being single, working, spending their hard-earned moolah and having the time of their lives?

Do we actually need someone to validate our existense?

I know that a lot of people would argue with this point that I will raise, but I honestly believe that the idea of love and being in-love has always been over-rated. I am not a sociopath. It's just that I feel that we have been using the word "love" very loosely these days.

I am quite sure that what a mother feels toward her children is real love, but to compare the same feeling the we feel towards other people that we have only known for less than like 3 months, that's offending.

Love is a very scary thought. Imagine promising forever with someone? What if one day you've discovered that he has 6 toes, or that he does not enjoy listening to Madonna? The horrors!

We can never be too sure about anything. Maybe we are confusing love with other sensation that we cannot put our fingers on. Maybe our idea of love has been jaded by the movies that we have seen or the books that we have read. Damn that Shakespeare guy!

(Defensive!)

On Blogging and Confessing

Ok, I know the title is kinda intriguing and ambitious, but let me tell you first that whatever I am gonna write here is based on my personal views and opinions. I am not gonna try to dissect the reason why blogging is such a HUGE hit these days, or why people blog at all. So please, just try to read through it and enjoy. I am no Freud.

Hehe....

The first line of these blog is such a contradiction. And why? OK, first of all, the main reason why people blog is for them to catch attention. Let's admit the fact that we, as 21st century human beings are breed by the years of television and internet VOYEURISM. If every blogger in the internet would write disclaimers like that, might as well keep it in a locked diary.

We are afraid that we are going to be judged based on what we are writing/sharing in our blogs but the fact that we actually posted something is a very clear indication that we are opening ourselves to the prying eyes of whoever reads your blogs.

Like this one I am writing. I know for a fact that someone, somehow, a soul would stumble upon this blog and read it. In this way, I am already opening myself up to criticism and judgement. We are all EXHIBITIONISTS, in one way or another. We have to surrender to the fact that once we have something written in our blogs, it is a way of baring our souls, our thoughts. At least that remains true for people like me that believes that writing is still the purest way of pouring out one's soul. When we post something in the internet, it is a subtle invitation to take a peek in our thoughts, may it be superficial or an honest presentation of ones' true self.

Think of it this way, blogging is the quintessential display of human's primal instinct to belong. We try to share our thoughts to the millions in the internet because we want someone to get something from it, to live with the experience, to synchronized with the same thoughts and sometimes to learn something from it. As humans, we use so many measures to leverage and benchmark ourselves with other human beings. We simply want to belong to a mass. Admittedly, I am openly riding in this bandwagon called blogging. I could site some reasons why I blog though:

1. Theraphy - for those like me that cannot afford to go to shrinks with ridiculous hourly basis rates, blogging can serve as an alternative outlet for all those pent-up angst so as not to strangle ourselves, hmmm... and sometimes your boss too.

2. The Hip/Cool/In Factor - again, we are alwyas fascinated and smitten by what is "in." There is a certain "hip"or "cool" factor if you are doing what the so-called "mass" is also doing.

3. The Intellectual Vanity appeal (plagiarized phrase!) - I would like to think that in writing my blogs, I am able to impart something valuable to my readers. Wheter it's a close friend being updated on what is currenlty happening in my life, or a stranger stumbling upon this blog. This also serves as a good venue for frustarted/trying-hard writers like me to publish our senseless mumblings.

4. Confessions - yes, this is the last and for me, most important reason why I blog. I am, you can say, coward when it comes to revealing and confessing my own feelings. I tend to shy away from confrontations and try to settle by compromising. I also feel that using the internet as a medium of sending messages is very im-personal but nonetheless effective. It saves us from the shame of face-to-face inter-actions.

On that note, I would end this blog by saying that, I know you have been reading my blogs, and that somehow, I hope that I have sparked even a little interest in your heart. Let me tell you, that everytime I see or hear you, I get that "warm and fuzzy" feeling inside. I may not fulfill your fantasies or meet your "minimum standard requirements." Though everyday is a battle to get your attention and sustain it even for a minute by my trivial musings because of your ADHD. Though I sometimes I feel stupid and dumb by following you around. Though this would sound mushy and all.... I just want you to know....

Ah...nevermind! (I don't wanna be judged you know!)